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Hambaobao

Hello! i had lot of fun today with Clare again.. we learnt tennis together from Ben(free of charge tenny coach)... I have only one comment to make- clare u suck!! hahaha ok me too laa... but still fun laa...

Anyway, i wanna introduce u to somebody today... hehe.. His name is hamburger..his chinese name is hambaobao... i adopted him yesterday..so cute right..

Ssigh...i cant stand myself..- i cant b more fickle. seriously! i purposely left him at coffeebean the same night! coz i decided to leave any memory of d terrible terrible past behind.. but then i missed hammy so much d today i went back there aft tennis to get him back... luckily nobody threw him away. I grew so attached to hammy aft i got him.. so yea it was more like i left my baby behind, not rilly the memories... If theres one other thing abt me, wen i get too attached to something i tend to literally stick to it..

But Clarissa was SO fuckin mean today la...!! she kept punchin hammy today at tm!..to relief her frustration!! wtf?! I had to protect him with all my might.. some of his hair even came out sia...

Then on the way home she kept pinching and flicking his nose..she even threatened to slice of his head! i mean, what did he ever do to u sia clare bear(see!, ure even related..heartless woman..)

But in the end i didnt fight back.. cant blame her coz she was like damn frustrated over some bf issue.. i just cursed her (..tht her pubic hair wont stop growing n growing, and tht her tits wud start 2 grow hair..whaahaha lets see how she's doing aft 1 week. hehe) ben, u too ah....dont think u can get away from abusing Hammy even tho it wasnt so obvious.. u r more dangerous...curse u to become fat ahh...

lol. omg i'm so evil iv been cursing and cursing nowadays.. hopefully i dont kena all my own curse sia....

Anw clare forgot to call andrew aft our game and he came all the way to tp to find her wen we're gone(tsk tsk). Dont worry clare, as long as u nv hurt his feelings on purpose and u know ur mistake and u apologize and u sayang him later on, i'm sure andrew 'll b happy again one..

we all make mistakes and we learn from em.. =)

But still ure under probation coz of wat u did... u MUSt keep at least 10metres away from hammy from now on.

GOOD-night to u!

So yea, anyway i was also so embarrased this mornin coz i had to borrow shoes from (ian's fren)Ben's mom. Haha... for PIPC lab practical... Accidentally wore slippers to sch.. we cant go in w/o slippers and goggles... n none of the ppl i know othr thn my classmates were in sch n i remembered ben lives just across the road.. lol lucky...her shoes were a bit big for me so i looked pretty silly.heehee.. but thx a lot ben..! =P

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not a girl, not yet a woman ^^

I guess knowin the truth's (hopefully it is...i cant tell whats real anymore) made things easier for me...or has it? lol
This experience's made me realise how weak i am.. but then i'm stronger everyday(evn w/o the damn gym)... i see how stubborn and mean i can be sometimes but i can only progress and become a better person... i rilly learnt a lot... like now i know what its like to truly love someone.. and the sacrifices youre willing to take for the happiness of just tht one special person.. then i know what its like to have your heart torn apart....shredded n then blended into shake...

On the other hand i guess i have a better understanding of what i need in a man in future...
Most of all, i'm confident my maturity 's taken a notch up another level (i'm not joking)..
i'm so polytechnic now...

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thank you i love you!!

I just realised i hardly take ANY photos with zixin... We shud start taking fotos! seriously.... we wont stay young and pretty forever u know...

Anyways.. Iv had so much support the past 2 days from friends especially zixin and clare bear... the 2 most effective Modern Women Power Motivators cum Super Critics

Zixin, thanks for all your advice and ya many many PosSibly workable ideas which are silly sometimes but funny n cute... to help me about certain issues... its so comforting to have you around......but im so sorry it had to be you to hav had all the experience to understand my situation n be able to help me through it... thx breakfast at yakun and the taxi ride.. d uncle was so fulla crapshit but damn funny la... "wo jia taxi, bu shi ferrari leh!" hahaha... Will treat u to good dinner soon

Clare, thanks for visiting me... straightening me out at home.. smelling my stench coz i didnt bathe tht night..(aft tht i bathe as per normal!).. and the oreo iceblend... I enjoyed dinner at blue jazz even tho i wasnt invited until last min.. it was expensive and i didnt have enuf to drink..

But so FUN tht night i loved it! just LETITGO ....

buuurrrrrpp..

I cant b more blessed to have my gaurdian angels around me especially during my darkest hours...

mag and everyone who'r probly concerned bout how i'm doing..,

yitian(thx for making me laugh a lot),

amelia(thx for letting me peep under ur skirt) ,

kaiting(thx for ordering screwdriver- it made me laugh too)

and matthew(thx for letting me scream at your face),

HK90 (thx for providing me extra 15bucks to add to my expensive dinner with the 4A-ers)..

and hong ping(thx for listening to me aaalll morning and the $4.20 too..nice rite d icecream...)

And BEN! almost forgot u.. haha jk.. thx for sharing a couple of chapters from your history of ben-in-demand... yes i believe u r superman... and thx for the detailed insight... i'l take it as u told me the truth but lied. haha

Thank u sooo much Mommy and papa, for the T-shirts.. Yes u still got taste...but No comments on d hoodie... wanna save d embarrasment...

(ian wouldv nagged at me by now for makin you waste money... i asked only for 1 tho)

and Jason... thx for calling me irritating and dumb....

may u accidentally mess with the wrong woman in future. *evil laugh*

Sorry i make it seem like an award speech.... i just feel like i need to thank everybody whos made my hardest days so easy ...

I wont deny the fact tht i havent fully recovered.... but time heals...
and mag dont worry, i still believe in god
even tho i dont go to church... I know he loves me and i love him too... =) heeheee....

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